Who am I to Judge?

I’ve never been the prettiest one in the room. Nor the brightest kid teacher had always picked to demonstrate answers in front. Everywhere I go, I know I’ll never be noticed. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not that lame, or that invisible like some soppy kids, it’s just that, I’m a closed person. I’m too plain that someone needs to see me through their hearts.

Which is why I’m amazed when these four persons actually have the ability to see me straight into my soul. I don’t know what qualities they saw in me, back then I didn’t show any. I wasn’t pretty, I wasn’t smart, I wore normal clothes, but despite all that they CHOSE me as their best friend. Once I wondered, ‘why me?’

After 16 years gaining experiences about life, I think I discover the answer to my simple yet the biggest question I’ve ever asked to myself in my entire life – THEY DIDN’T JUDGE. You heard me, they didn’t judge. By the first time I saw them, I didn’t see any judging eyes scanning and digging into my deepest thoughts (like everyone else did). Instead, I saw a pair of welcoming eyes that actually, erm sparkled? Okay that’s ridiculous, eyes don’t spark. And I still remember the real smile they gave to me the very first time we met.

Which is kind of ironic because I judged them. All of them – Azalea, Thanuja, Sashini and mostly Ammera (mind you Ammera was an emo girl back then that she scared the shit outta me).

Sitting next to Azalea sometimes makes me feel ashamed that I actually threw many bad thoughts towards a VERY nice person.

And talking to Ammera, makes me regret that I came out with impressions like ‘can you wear your clothes properly?’ or ‘what a snobbish’ or ‘geez what is wrong with her?’ before I even know her real name.

So yeah, I judged people.

But now I have learned a lesson – don’t judge a book by its cover before you even have the intention to buy it. Judge it after you have finished reading the whole script. Then only you have the right to point out your opinions.

Because, you’ll never know what the story inside offers you. You might lose the chance to indulge yourself into a good read if you judge books by their covers.

Azalea Ammera Thanuja Sashini turned out to be the greatest person I have ever known. If they were books, they’d probably be the international best selling for the decade! <3