1. I scored 28% for Add Math and 50% for Math tests recently. I'm that dumb. I am never good at calculating numbers and never will. I still remember how my kindergarten teacher knocked my head with her marker pen when I kept forgetting to count from 1 until 100 correctly (and fluently).
2. I have problems with Chemistry and Physics. Sometimes I wonder why I'm in the science class at all. I have no good science ability. I can only read and imagine things. Which explains why I never get a B for my History. I'd make an excellent student if I was in the Commerce stream. I love boasting about economical stuff more than balancing chemical equations. So yeah - I hope I survive.
3. I always talk back to my mother. I am indeed a silent yet rebellious daughter. All this while we never had the same opinions about things. Except for our tastes in food and guys (hm). I am more like my father, I resemble my father's personalities. I am in better term with my dad hence I always ask him to fulfill my unnecessary wants. I asked for clothes, shoes, and fantasy novels. I eat McDonald's every week. My monthly allowance kind of exceeds the limit for a girl who lives in an average family. I tend to forget that Daddy isn't a filthy rich man.
4. I am a hot tempered person. You can ask Azalea and my other best friends. They know at what time, in what place and how will I react on certain things that don't really please me. I get mad easily. I keep questioning the existence of the persons I dislike. Yet surprisingly, according to them, I get cooled very fast.
5. Other than that, I am a VERY outspoken person. I think I did hurt the people around me a lot, especially my best friends. My words aren't blunt. At times they could be as sharp as blades and as fast as bullets. It must had been really hard for them when I pointed out my opinions harshly. Maybe they are used to it. Maybe they know this harsh characteristic is deep buried in my soul - it came along with me, it's in me.
6. I may look confident and poise all the time, but trust me, I never know how to communicate brilliantly with boys. I can get really nervous when I see my crush. The only thing I can hear when the guy I like is around me is the sound of my non-stop-suddenly-fast-beating heart. Stupid. I don't know why. Maybe it's the chemical attraction or something. Words can't barely come out from my mouth. My mind will calculate things I should spill but you know how I hate calculating. And I am very conscious of what he'll think when he sees me trying so hard. So I kind of blew my chances like every time. Things ALWAYS don't work out between me and boys.
7. And I do notice how my crush looks at me. It's like as if he's giving me the 'geez that is the 1000th time I catch you starring at me' look. The thing is that I tend to stare at beautiful people, especially him. So yeah, I know it's rude, but I'm sorry, I can't help it.
8. I am bitter and I have a bit of negative auras around me. I'm afraid someday the people I love will leave me behind because of these negative forces.
I am a total failure.
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But not for long. I promise.
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