Gryffirin? Slytherdor? Um-

There are times when my mother asks me to clean the house by using the vacuum cleaner I will groan silently and drag the thing and around the house and sometimes untangle the bloody wire while muttering, 'these muggles, cant they invent something a lot better than a deafening piece of machine?' or 'these muggles, how ingenious!' or 'I do wish I have my wand with me right now' or 'where did these muggles get the idea?' or simply 'muggles' under my breath. Sometimes I will grin thinking how such thoughts could invade my stable mind, I mean I AM A MUGGLE and that's it. I am a muggle.

I guess it's because I get too wrapped around JK Rowling's amazing piece of writing, that I feel like I'm a part of the story. Most nights I find myself imagining to be sleeping in a Gryffindor dorm with Alea and Thanuja and Shamin as my dorm mates, that Iskandar and this guy I like at school could be our version of Harry and Ron, lol. (I didn't include Ammera because she always says that she's a Slytherin through and through, but I always picture her as a friendly Slytherin though). Or maybe it's just because I have gone a bit bonkers lol, I'll never know.

During one of the sleepovers I had with my best riends, there was one time I told them that IF (emphasizing the IF) given the circumstances that I actually had a chance to study at Hogwarts, I could never guess in which house I will be sorted to. Really, I even had this idea that maybe the Sorting Hat would be a lil bit confused upon being put on my head, because honestly even I myself couldn't evaluate my personality. If there is one weakness of mine that I am not shame to admit it, it would my indecisiveness.

At times I thought I would be a great Gryffindor. I mean I'm a loyal friend, I'm brave and courageous, I'm quite witty - maybe not a smart ass like a Ravenclaw, but a fair clever enough person. I like standing for what I believe in and I love breaking rules and being rebellious, hehe. Yes, macam puji diri sendiri je. But at the same time, I knew I could be a glorious Slytherin too, because I know I have a mounting amount of ego in my soul, my determination is high and I'm also quite cunning sometimes. Not to mention this narcissism symptom I have, and God knows how much I love myself, as in admire myself too much. I could be very selfish too. And I bark louder than I bite.

The concept is almost like the epic story called Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. When I'm in a good mood and feel like being a good person, I will automatically switch to my Gryffindor traits. Always the goody-goody Hajar with her Gryffindor-ness. But when the bad hair days come, I know I look like a sulking Slytherin, I even act like one. I will wear this smug look on my face and this smirk telling, 'hey who cares I am Hajar and I am better than everyone'. And the dark Hajar is definitely a true Slytherin.

And so therefore my imagination of being in Hogwarts dormitories will always switch from the colour of maroon and gold to green and silver. At times I swear I see my room like a Gryffindor Head Girl's room, but another times, the bed sheet turns green and the lightning of my room looks dim and classy.

I really do hope that I'm not the only one who experiences this split personality symptom thing, lol, that would just be scary.